Me,myself and I

2011-06-30T15:26:00.000-07:00

When you’ve lost track of time, when you just feel that connection, that spark. When you’d look at your phone and see that it’d been more than an hour. Where you’d talk for so long, then suddenly think ”How did we end up talking about this?!” The best conversations are the ones where you don’t even need to worry or think of what to say.. you just do because you’re just that comfortable.

:)

2011-03-16T16:32:00.000-07:00

life is always unfair. well it is never fair at all.
i dont know why i cant even enjoy teenage life, ya know?
this sucks.. i cant do much about it.
and you know whats the worst part is that i dont have anyone to
share this all with. im alone and this post is just utter bullshit.

2011-02-25T03:39:00.001-08:00

truth to be told, life is hard right now.

2011-02-04T00:31:00.000-08:00

have you ever wished your dreams turn to reality?
sometimes no, sometimes yes isnt it?
ive been dreaming about grandma lately. im saying its more of a nightmare than a dream actually. been having these dreams about her for 3 consecutive days. i have all means to be worried. she's actually sick and i havent talked to her like for 2 weeks? i just hope she'll stay strong ya know? i miss her :(

well my life's in a pretty messed up mode right now, but what the hell im just gonna look forward to what it brings me.

damn right. haha :>

2011-01-22T05:13:00.000-08:00

nothing much..nothing new.

so as said many times, life's been mundane.
i just have family>school>friends.
thats about it. and yes, im happy.
not in search for anything really,i think i just enjoy staying at home and getting fat. yes, fat.
so anyways, 2011 has started.
so like tuwenty eeeeleehhhven. omg.
i was born in 1993.
so like im 18 this year.
i dont get it, why are some people in a rush to grow up?
i mean come on, you know if you still feel like a kid then act like one. no forcing yourself.
i mean this is my point of view, people have different opinions. so call me childish whatever, i dont care what you think.

so anyways 2011..
school has already started..i mean O-LEVELS.
so im feeling (kinda) motivated now and i hope this
really continues throughout the year. so i have still have my friends with me :) i love those people..no matter how much they can be a pain in the ass sometimes :/

i just hope 2011 will be a good year you know. better than 2010. better than 2009 and all the last years.

oh man, its really my last year in high school. aww

2010-12-27T09:39:00.000-08:00

lets see.. merry christmas everyone! (im two days late but that doesnt really matter)

this year's christmas is really good.
i dont know, its not more of the presents, not so much of the food too but frankly speaking it was more of the great company i had. i felt really blessed on that day. i felt god (yes,god) has blessed me with such a wonderful family, relatives and yes even friends. i dont know what i would do with thiss family of mine. sure, we quarrel and all but i love all of them to death. i just hadnt figure out a way to really express it to them. for now, i'll just stick to the quarrelling and bickering. haha

so lets see 2010.. hmm i would say it has been a mundane year.
except for the fact that i just took my n'levels. i dont know if i consider myself lucky or what but i managed to (just) pass it. i gotta thank all the teachers and friends for motivating me and we got through it. oh yay :)
again, nothing much has happened. no drama like the previous year. and i like it that way. lets hope 2011 wont have any major drama too. -crosses fingers.
mehhh, like what 5 more days till 2011?

and oh, funny thing was last night someone asked me this question ' what is love to you right now?' what a question huh? well i just replied him 'i dont know, i really dont knowwww' haha kinda stupid to answer that way isnt it? oh well.

other than that, life's been pretty boring.
for the past month plus plus, its all been work,home,eat,work,home.
i've learned quite a few from this work of mine and ive meet some pretty cool people.
i like that. haha yeah.

so now lets see, im looking forward to tmr, the 29th <3 (hahahaha)and new years eve and new years itself. hahaha OH YAY. ITS TIME TO FIGHT WITH O'S NEXT YEAR.
i shall really really really really really really really really really really really really really really study my ass off. i hope i can do it.

okay thats all. have a good day everyone! :)

were all in red cos its kinda our family tradition. i think my mom forgot though. oh man.

2010-11-30T10:13:00.000-08:00

one moment your excited for something and then after that your not anymore
cos its likely not gonna happen and then someone says something and your excited again.

ever had that feeling? hahaha

man, i seriously have a lot of catching to do with some people. but i already have but im not quite contented yet you see. hehehe.

okay, esp with this old friend of mine whom i havent seen for like 6 years?
we used to be bestfriends. the sad thing was we had this argument before she left
and well we didnt really bid our farewells of some sort.
and then i eventually forgot about her but THANK GOD FOR FACEBOOK! no, really.
and then we started talking from there again and we both agreed that whole 'i dont friend you' thing was just stupid. the end.

so anyways, i haovent been updating this thing for days now.
oops, my badddd.
haha and i just made a twitter account not long ago. i know very slow.
quite interesting actually. not bad.
but i would still write here if like i have to say how i feel and all those.
twitter is only limited to 140 words. how sad.

k thats all, gotta head off for work nowwww.

2010-11-06T08:53:00.001-07:00

and I caught myself smiling..thinking about the memories..thinking about you :)

to add to my list of the shows I grew up with are :
-legends of the hidden temple
-who is afraid of the dark
-the Amanda show
-the brothers Garcia(!!!)
Carlos Garcia was fine! Nahhh jk. But he was cute.

It brings back all good memories of growing up. I hope they have DVDs of this shows. I would be the first to buy em all!

What the hell happened to nickelodeon now? What happened to all these good shows?

God, I feel like a 9 year old all over again!
;)

2010-11-05T17:17:00.000-07:00

i hate the fact that you ignored me for so long
then you start talking to me like nothing happened.
And by saying the simplest things, you make me smile.

SMH.

i grew up watching this AWESOME shows.

-lizzie mcguire
-all that
-kenan and kel
-rocket power
-even stevens
-thats so raven
-rugrats

not to forget,
CLIFFORD THE BIG RED DOG.
AHHHHHHH SO ADORABLE!

K BYE, GONNA WATCH THIS SHOWS ON YOUTUBE!

2010-11-01T15:11:00.000-07:00

I’m the kind of girl who is quiet in large groups or around people I don’t know; you only see the real me if we’re close. I smile and laugh a lot, especially at the most inappropriate times. I’m a hopeless romantic who’s too afraid to fall herself. I trip over air, up stairs, and over people’s feet. I am the hardest person to offend, but it is all too easy to make me feel horrible. I hate telling people about my problems; they don’t need to worry about me. I’m the one who listens to other people’s problems. I believe people should not be judged before one takes the time to get to know them, yet I am guilty of doing that exact thing. I love to think rather than talk. I prefer rainy, cloudy days to sunny ones. I’m awkward, clumsy, shy, strange… but this is me. Take it or leave it.

HAPPY FIRST OF NOVEMBER!

2010-10-27T23:38:00.000-07:00

Baby please don't go
If I wake up tomorrow will you still be here?

Ahahaha, mannn I love that song very much!

Anyways, a happy (belated) birthday to my oldest mom,best cook ever(sorry mum you have to be 2nd),best storyteller(telling ghost stories before I sleep..see the word best :D) my nana,my lola,my nanay, my grandmaaaaaa! <3

I miss her, i do.
I'm really glad she enjoyed her birthday.
Almost made me cry..shit.
Well considering what happened few months back..yeah :)

I wanna hug her so bad..gahhh
Sucks that you gotta be so far way from the people dear to you which reminds me I miss my cousins toooooooo!

I love my grandma.
Dear God, please give her more birthdays to come.
You can decrease mine if you want!
Hahaha.

xx

2010-10-27T12:38:00.000-07:00

hello.

http://dj-gil.hi5.com/friend/p30235416--Rhiena_Cogtas--html

just go to that. embarassing much.
seriously.

but it gave me a good laugh and OMG WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING THEN?!!
ahahaha it made my day though.

'i am a gerl of course im a very quiet gal(well sometimes veri wildd lah!)i live in sunny singapore and i really,really,really hate BOYZZZ!very annoying.lolzz(anD IM vERy crazy FOr MUSICZ)LOLZZZ!THATS why IM aLWAYS watching MTV!AND im very SWEET!++'

SERIOUSLY RHIENA?!?
although well i still find BOYZZZ annoying.
and whats with the LOLZZZ ?
and the display pic..so not me but i said it was me...wait for it

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA EPIC MUCH?

OH GOD THIS WAS 4-5 YEARS AGO?
OH WELL. I LOVE MYSELF STILL.

on another note, I GOT A JOB.
my first ever. hope everything will turn out good.
THANKS AURIEL LIM! xxx

2010-10-26T20:36:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, words are not enough to make someone feel that you care for them. Sometimes, it needs a little effort to convince them that you really care.

2010-10-24T20:53:00.000-07:00

Damn dude. I forgot how we actually were friends.

We were actually 'close' huh? Wow.
I kinda miss you dude.

O LEVEL ENGLISH TMR!
I am scared.
Just hoping for the best,let god do the rest. Haha :)

Damn it, I can't sleep! Stupid flu still here.

Happy birthday sister,in less than 10 minutes that is. Your snoring beside me. Gosh.
I love you anyways! xxxxxx

2010-10-24T17:08:00.000-07:00

I'm writing or rather typing from my touch. So I don't know if this works but I'll try.

So hi.

I love food. Especially unhealthy ones.
My guilty pleasure are foods which have like the vinegar and salt flavour in them.

The one like I'm eating now.
So goooooooood :D

That is all. Goodbye.

2010-10-23T20:18:00.000-07:00

I FORGOT HOW MUCH I LOVE CHERYL COLE! No Homo Please :)
HAHAHA and yes, i love SELENA GOMEZ TOO! -evil laughzzzz.

kinda auriel's fault that im listening to her again! hoho but i dont blame her.
cant wait for her new album mannn! woohoo orgasm to the ears. lol jk.

but this article makes me sad > http://www.guardian.co.uk/culture/2010/oct/23/cheryl-cole-interview-simon-hattenstone. awww mann.

the guy is STOOPID to cheat on her.
what ever happened to the faithful guys on earth?
are they all extinct?!?!
i hope not.

anyways, i cant breathe properly.
my nose is blocked.
i hope it unblocks soon..seriously.
before o level paper on monday.
PLEASE!

HAHA well okay.
i hope i dream of the guy again that i dreamt of last night.
i wished i never woke up. nehhhh i still wanna live but
the dream was nice :)

OKAY BAIIIIII!

2010-10-19T01:25:00.000-07:00

ooohh, im updating more nowww. haha

okay so today was fun.

F.U.N

there was grad day,the whole ikea thing with mom and NIGHT SAFARI with floorball mates (Y)

all in one day.

somehow,i realised a lot today.

no seriously. hahaha

wow 4 years have gone so fast.

i still do remember the very first day of secondary school.

thank god i had my brother back then to show me around. woohoo

i realised i was more open (in a outspoken way) trust me back in primary school

i was sooooo goddamn shy man.

i bet i couldnt even dare start a conversation with the drink stall aunties like i do noww.

should i write a big LOL here?

anyways, ive been definitely stronger with all the shiz ive gone through.

but i still could definitely improve on that.

well ive met awesome people, some well turned not so awesome while most are still awesome.

but hey, thats how life works doesnt it?

ive found out about myself more than i could have ever imagined.

FOR EXAMPLE, sing. nahh joke. idk, make people laugh i guessssss? or on a deeper note,

have some sense of leadership.

whether the people i met,were still talking or not now i will at least remembered at least a moment with them.

(the last part so cheesyyyyyy)

i dont get, why am i updating this space at 1.06AM. ooooohhh

anyways,this whole secondary school experience will never ever be forgotten.

and oh,

i love my mom. i really do.

i feel like im such a bitch,eeediot,arse,whatever bad thing you can think of

whenever im angry with her.

okay sure,maybe its teen angst whatever crap and it cannot be avoided but

SHE IS JUST TRYING TO BE A GOOD MOM.

(the irony, i bet im still gonna be angry with her some time but bear with me)

take this example:

i was talking to my mom over the phone just now.

Me: Ma, where are you? your gonna be late for grad day.

Mom: Sorry,i still havent flag a taxi. i'll be very late.

Me: Its okay, you dont have to come already.

Mom: Really sorry okay. can i meet you after the event? lets go IKEA and shop.

(Laughing Out Loud)

Me: Okay, bye. HAHAHA.

she always tells me whatever she's doing is for my own good although sometimes

i think its just bloody unfair. but yeah maybe 15 years later i might say the same thing to my

children. I.REALLY.JUST.NEED.TO.TAKE.A.MOMENT.TO UNDERSTAND.HER.

i know,she feels hurt sometimes. i am able feel it.

just cant imagine life without her.

and not forgetting my dad too,same thing works for him.

i just need to be more appreciative,understanding and patient towards the both of them.

Night Safari was just nicee you know. To hang out with people i havent talked to properly

for months. omg,i missed them. haha. And i didnt know, You could walk the whole night safari. i thought it was a need to take the tram. Dumbass.

Probably a day i would never forget.

Please Dont Go-Mike Posner :)

Goodnight.

btw, i really really miss this :(

2010-10-18T21:22:00.000-07:00

I wanna text you. I want to tell you that I miss you and want to start our relationship over. Pretend that nothing happened, be strangers once again, and get to know each other all over again. But then I remember, if you wanted to be friends again, you’d call. You’d text. You’d say hi. You’d start acting like you actually care. Even if everything with us is over to you, I can’t help but miss you sometimes. I can’t help but miss all the fun, sweet, and my favorite “aww” moments that you don’t even care about. I miss you, I really do, I wish you did too.

Don’t know why I’m feeling this way.

"To be honest with you, I dont have the words to make you feel better. But I do have the arms to give you a hug, ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart; a heart that’s aching to see you smile again."

Nawwwww :')

on a side note, grad day tomorrow!

excited? not much.

more of the idk what to expect kind of feeling.

gonna be a day to remember for sure though.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

2010-09-10T18:36:00.000-07:00

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

:')

Fort Minor feat. Holly Brook-Where' you go?
this song is so 2006 man.

speaking of 2006, i miss that year.
i know i know im saying this for the upteenth time,
but i miss my primary school buddies :(

speaking of which, SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO EVERYONE :)

good day..or rather..good night! haha

2010-08-15T19:36:00.000-07:00

i hope you rot in hell man.
why do i even fucking care
seriously.
have some heart at least.

2010-08-05T15:20:00.000-07:00

When I’m angry, I’m outright vocal about my feelings. I will not spare you my venom-laced words no matter who you are. But when I’m hurt, I clam up, refusing to let anyone in as much as they try to pry me open. On some days, I feel like Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde. I push away the people who care about me the most, and ignore their pleas. I become a demonic wreck instead. I like to deal with my own problems on my own, I never did like relying on others for help, because when you’ve been disappointed far too many times, you lose hope in humanity and in the ones whom you love.

-http://fracktion.wordpress.com/

idk why but i just ended up in there and found that whole paragraph.
but its so god damn true.

on a side note, SINGFEST was verybellyjellymerryjollygolly freaking AWESOME! :)
going there was worth it after all .
jully black,dianebirch,lupefiasco,koolnthegang,kanyewest! woohooo!

okay,adios mi amigos!

2010-07-18T17:09:00.000-07:00

somehow every sunday i feel peace after i leave church.
although well my friends have a joke of me saying ' go to church die ah !'
today's cat class opened my eyes to many many things.
that there are more more things to have a thought about than what im thinking now.. which are useless . really . wait , am i making sense here? oh well.
going back. i feel happy today.

i feel happy , that today i finally told someone what ive been keeping inside.
keeping it inside .. it didnt help.
in a way , it made me more bitter on facing everyday.
so yes , i swear i could have died keeping it in . HAHA
and it was the most unexpected person that i told my 'everything' too . LOL.
okay back to it , thank you douche.

i think ive not been myself lately.
actually i have no idea what or who is the real myself.
something like 'a person has too many masks , that he doesnt know which one is the real him'

and and , please please grandma . be strong :'(
im begging you from the bottom of my heart please please do not give up.
wait for us , wait for me.
dont just go like that.
i feel so helpless staying here.

okay thats all.
time to study (really)

2010-07-03T15:49:00.000-07:00

you know , a few days back i was with friends in the study area
and we were practicing for our english oral.
one question was 'when was a time you lost confidence' or smth like that.
well i told them about my first year of school here in singapore.
telling them that , i remembered a lot .
the massive culture shock i suffered, the faces of my friends back home when i have to leave them.
my new classmates were mean to me.. just cos im filipino.
dont mind me , im really proud to be one.
no pun intended whatsoever , i just dont get why people always fun of it.
just because, most of us come here to work as maids doesnt mean all of us are isnt it?
i mean my friends.. they make fun of it too.
im fine with it . what are friends without making fun of each other right?
just sometimes, i feel its too much.
got me thinking , why the hell did i have to come here when i could have stayed back home and well still be in contact with those friends i missed. its been a long 8 years.
all of them are probably in college while me im still in high school...failing.
i really do love my friends here too . without them, i wouldnt have known certain things.
all the memories too .
this post was well just to let out what i feel .

studies have been such a bitch.
what to do . especially my coursework .
practical.. its this thursday .
help me .

i really miss my grandma :'(
take care of yourself over there.

we are all living in a cruel world.

on a good note ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANNA .
thanks for being a great buddy to me .
naw , i miss sec two days now .

2010-06-25T17:38:00.000-07:00

i love you honey =)
hahaha i hope your happy when you see this . loooooool .

school in 2 days time . oh nooooo

n level in like 3 months? holy crap .

shit.shit.shit.shit .

i love my friends . they make me laugh so hard till i wanna pee . HAHAHA .

goodbye .

2010-06-23T20:53:00.000-07:00

so fuck the world , feed it beans . woo

2010-06-15T18:20:00.000-07:00

hey YOU , SCEREW YOU .
GO AWAYYYYYYYYYYY ~ FAR FAR AWAY .
THANK YOU .

ARRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .

ASS .

2010-06-09T17:34:00.000-07:00

OMG . SETTLER'S CAFE ANYONE ? PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE? :)

urgent . HAHAHAHAHAHA

i realised i have over 70+ cousins altogether but i like only know 20 of them ?

COOL SHIT MAN . hehehe .

2010-06-04T17:58:00.000-07:00

so nice to hear your voice again ,
tell me how long has it been
since ive talked to you .

okay , i have to stop listening to that song .
and changing the lyrics.

hey babes ,
nothing much now .
school has officially taken my first week of my holidays.
and i know it will take even more days in the coming weeks .
btw im bored . i love globalisation(?) (Y)

I MISS YOU ASSHOLE , YOU HAPPY NOW ?
kay la , im not vulgar but thats how you wanna be called huh ? ^^

oh and , maybe F was right .
i might not have nothing for you anymore
but heck , still cant forget you .

well that sucks .

and hey you ,
i know your having a hard time now .
but just remember im here , although far :)

this is a very messy post .

bye .

2010-05-30T17:08:00.000-07:00

i wanna hear your voice .. one more time .

please.please.please.please

fnn you suck
fnn you suck
fnn you suck
i regret taking you big time .

venting of frustrations here . DONE (Y) < :)

okay on another note ,
i celebrated my birthday 5 days ago .
and it was awesome .
comparing it to last year's , this year was definitely better .
and yeah im damn glad about it :)

without these people that awesome day wouldnt have happened .

thank you auriel , asyraf , ana , amelah , natasha , jai
for the kick ass unique cake and spending my big day with me .
appreciate it guys !
and auriel my twin , for the KE$HA CD baby ! :)))
i would like to thank rhia , christine , loretta and gladys
for laser-questing with me and having an early birthday celebration with me .
it was the bomb ! (Y)
thank you all those who bothered to wish me on facebook or sent me texts during midnight causing me sleep . but its okay :)
thank you to those who wished me through phone :)
and and , those 4/5 peeps who turned up for the games carnival , it was definitely one experience . we all did well . thanks for the medal uh . HAHA .
and well , thank you to my family esp. parents
for still supporting and being there for me even though i can be a bitch most of the time and bringing me up this 17 years of my life .

and thank GOD , for giving me these 17 years of my life .

i know no one is gonna read this but again , THANK YOU ! :D

WOOHOO . IM SEVENTEEN BABY ! :)

byebye amigas .

P.S. OMG . june in a day's time .
bloody fricking amazingly fast . tsk tsk .

2010-05-27T17:09:00.000-07:00

im sorry guys . for giving you the bullshit attidude sometimes .
i just feel that there's this thing inside me thats dying to get out but it just cant .
i dont mean to be like that . AH FUCK IT .

Have you ever been in love ? horrible isnt it ? It makes you so vulnerable . It opens up your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside and mess you up . You build up all these defences , you build up a whole suit of armour , so that nothing can hurt you , then one stupid person , no different from any other stupid person , wanders into your stupid life . You give them a piece of you . They didnt ask for it . They did something dumb one day , like kiss you or smile at you , and then your life isnt your own anymore . Love takes hostages . It gets inside you . It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness , so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart . It hurts. Not just in the imagination . Not just in the mind . It's a soul-hurt , a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain . I hate love .

-Neil Gaiman .

well , how about the good things that love does ?

'you know , i have always wondered everyday if stopped to think about me .
. cos i never ever fail to think about you everyday . '

2010-05-17T17:56:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wish i could fake my death and watch my funeral just to see who truly gives a shit about me .

oh well ,

HONEYCHICKENWINGSWITHFLOWERSOHMANITSSHIOK! :)

when i needed you the most , you werent there .

2010-05-15T11:36:00.000-07:00

dont say you love me .. dont even .
im sick and tired of this whole situation .

YAY ! exams are over ! but im so gonna fail maths and (maybe) science .

kay , thats about it .
im off to COUGAR TOWN ! not .

:)

2010-05-08T14:06:00.000-07:00

okay i use this little dusty space of mine to write how my day went..
or how i feel .

so many things are happening now .
i realise when im alone , i tend to think a lot . as in , really anything and everything.
thats what i did last night .
now mind you , im not being emo .
(it was also the fact that i couldnt sleep)
you might be thinking that because of the previous post .
but nah , its just ranting .
hm so last night , i had this dream .. or rather a nightmare.
it felt so real . like what would happen in real life .

the dream sucked .
but somehow true .
however there was this one person who was there for me throughout the dream.
i appreciate the person being there . (although the person wont ever know he/she was in it)
but oh well , i thank you person.
thank you for being there for me when everyone else wasnt .

now.. i just need that person in real life .
oh gawd , i sound so pathetic .
but yeah..

i thank the dream too , for bringing me down to my all time low .

nehmind , i shall drown myself with history (or maths ) . boohoo .

17 more days and im feeling no sense of excitement or anything . hah

2010-05-07T22:10:00.000-07:00

Je ne peux pas profiter de cette plus. Je veux revenir en arrière. La vie ici est tout simplement trop difficile à gérer aujourd'hui. J'abandonne. Je ne veux pas déranger personne. vous le savez, je ne veux juste pas être un fardeau plus :(

i myself dont know why its in french :(

screw this man . i always have this depressed mood during fridays .
well TGIF .. not .

oh well , happy weekends people .

2010-04-29T21:00:00.000-07:00

god , just bless me please .

HI I AM BORED . THIS PLACE IS DUSTY ALREADY .

EXAM PERIOD NOW . REMEMBER TO VISIT ME DURING MY FUNERAL :D

in a more serious note , i dont wanna leave . no i dont want .

i gotta live my life .

26 more days !

(today i realised how much i love my name .
cos im so damn sure im the only one who has it in the whole entire universe . HEHEHE . )

okay bye , i love you :)

2010-04-17T00:21:00.000-07:00

today (yesterday for that matter) made me realise how i dont want all these to end .

i ain't ready yet .
let time pass slower .

2010-04-03T20:50:00.000-07:00

well today feels like a sunday

and i've been thinking lately ..

what if i was studying in the Philippines now ?
how different would it have been ?
well , i guess it would be very different in many ways .
i was looking through the pics in my cousin's facebook and i saw a huge difference.
she just graduated from secondary school and
she's entering college this june and were almost of the same age .

see what i mean ?

dont get me wrong , i dont dislike studying here in Singapore .
its just sometimes i cant help but wonder .
but then again , i met awesome people in Singapore .
and like what my mom told me , i dont need to rush in finishing my studies .
so well it doesnt matter where or when i finish it then .

God has plans for me .
(i feel so holy now )

so yeah .
and please ignore the last post .

happy easter in advance people !

goodbye .

/im the one who wants to be with you ,
deep inside i hope you feel it too
waited on a line of greens and blues
just to be the next to be with you .

To be with you - Mr Big .

yeah , i love the oldies .

2010-04-02T22:52:00.000-07:00

hey guess what ? you will never ever know .

i have this weird feeling for you , dont you know that ?
i smile when i think of you .
this is crazy .

wow . its april already .
no , time is going to fast .

2010-03-28T23:42:00.000-07:00

you know you love me , i know you care .

shingz man , cannot sleep . DIE
tomorrow have school .
i really hate mondays now :(

had awesome mad fun today man .
went to cat class in the morning , satan
HAHA . peace sign and the yin and yang are satanic .
loved the lesson .
hm then went for mass and such .
went to eat at kopitiam with baby (!) , gladys , loretta and christine .
after that they camwhored at the garden plaza .
fun eh ? i was forced to join them . lol

okay so went home ...

then went out again .

this time went with asyraf and later auriel to study .
well i did learn some new things you know .
laughed and all . it was fun .

this was probably the most fun sunday in a long long time .

kay , gotta go now.
have to try to get myself to sleep .

:)

2010-03-26T21:38:00.000-07:00

stoned.stuck.hungry

bye . i love you all .

2010-03-21T18:31:00.000-07:00

oh mann , school tmr . its sure gonna be sucky .
but anyways , im gonna see my friends . so its all good .
miss those people somehow .

term 2 , here i come .

who knows , it might just end with a snap .

if anyone can give me jollibee now , i'll give you the tightest hug ever .
seriously man , i have been craving for the chicken there since forever !

bye people .

2010-03-20T00:23:00.000-07:00

BAD ENGLISH !

i love your song ! (:

2010-03-19T18:49:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THESE IDIOTS :

(in an un-random order please . )

FIKRI
DARRIK
JOSEPH

well the last two are not so much of idiots . hehe
first one is a MAJOR one .
i hope these people study hard this year .

march 19 is a special day , so many birthdays .
awesome .

i miss you laaaaa baby ! hahaha .

kay bye , dinner > :D

2010-03-16T23:27:00.000-07:00

i shall take this chance to update .

kay , so i felt this huge sense of happiness at the end of the today .
i seriously have no idea .
but i think it was cos :

- i actually studied physics
- i talked to an old friend
- opened up something to him about some stuffs and felt this sense of clearance .
- that i made his day (aww, insert big smiley face . ) this stuff doesnt happen all the time you know .
- i saw my friends after 5 days? haha .

well yeah . i love days where you go to sleep with a smile on your face .

i wish there was more of this days .

im happy . yay ! (:

2010-03-15T20:42:00.000-07:00

really , if i never see your face again ; i dont mind (anymore) .
(:

come back , abby . i wanna catch up w you . its been 6 years aye .
i miss ameera , shuhadah , iffah and yes fikri too .
bffffaye . ):
rhia , jo , loretta and rosalind .
i suddenly miss this people . i dont know why .

also , i suddenly love oreos very much .
give me one and i'll love you . hehe
auriel theodora jacobea lim must be happy if she sees this . haha

i miss shananay too , be shocked . (:

2010-03-14T00:20:00.000-08:00

omg . i am going crazy because of ADAM LEVINE ! ^
the first name sounds so intriguing .

hahahaha . omg , he is just so heavenly .
i mean how he is and all . oh my , hot laaaa.
oh if you dont know , he is the lead singer of maroon 5 .

but im looking at him now , and he's looking back at me with a smile .
i know , i know . im going crazy . HOHOHOHO . :D
go google if you want .

i think i have a thing for guys (or rather men) who are lead singers of bands .
weird . and i meant men cos they are between the ages 25-30 . hahaha .
another example , brandon flowers .
lead singer of the killers .
hahaha . okay la , i shall stop here about this .

nice > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MbtajuiuLMU&feature=fvst

kay friday ; seoul garden with farsha , auriel , amelah and asyraf .
it was awesome , fun and crazy . i love this people mannnn .
never fail to make me laugh plus very very kecoh ! haha .
we shall watch a movie soon too guyzzz .

other than that , nothing much .
same old stuff still .
but i am more determined to improve in my studies .
work hard rhiennnnaaaaaaa !

oh yeah , not gonna see baby and the rest tmr .
so saddddddd . ))))):
two weeks eh ? oh well .
haha .

shall update more later , gonna sleep now .
goodnight .

P.S : i apologise if i seem so bimbotic in this post , its just called going crazy . HAHA .

2010-03-07T17:48:00.000-08:00

omg , i dont know why ..
but i really have this really big big urge to talk to you .

oh no ?

2010-03-06T23:12:00.000-08:00

what i want for my birthday ;

a new camera .

to take pictures of the memories and moments this year .

to never forget them .

(:

2010-03-06T18:14:00.000-08:00

wow . long time no post .
so life has been mundane .
nothing much .
hoping life would be back to normal very soon .
i dont want any other craps coming anymore .
i wanna be focused .

on another note ,
sec 4 camp just ended .
probably the slackiest camp i have been to . haha
oh well , it was a good time with friends .
a very good time so much that i didnt wanna leave them on
the second night .
really hate when time passes fast when your having fun .

what can i say , i love my friends .
wonder how life will be without these awesome people .

on another note , floorball nationals just ended too .
a huge sigh of relief mannn .
so tiring and now im like focused for my studies .

oh no , this post is so boring .

kay la , got to go.
spaghetti waiting for me .

i dont miss you anymore and im damn glad about it . (:

2010-02-19T23:35:00.000-08:00

is it wrong to be nice ?

when all you get back is shit .

i feel im letting my guard down .. well , way down .

should i still say as the nice person or ?

oh crap . what the hell .

cross country .. 16 uh . my age till may 25 2010 ! hahaha .

deprove from last year , oh well .

tired . gonna sleep and dream about dino$aurs !

nights !

2010-02-15T01:08:00.000-08:00

someone tell me ,

how do you get someone out of your mind when ..

everyday you think about that person ,

wish you were with that person,

wish you could tell how much that person means to you and

all you think before you sleep is that certain someone

gawd, its really really hard .

and this sucks.. a lot .

i hate this feeling .

i dont wanna be treated like some toy .

you know , the one you can throw around .

so just stop playing with me .

2010-02-12T19:11:00.000-08:00

everything is just effing frustrating now .

on a better note ,

happy chinese new year to those celebrating !
watch what you eat . (:

will update soon..i guess .

take care you reading this .

2010-02-06T18:12:00.000-08:00

yesterday was awesome man !
firstly , we won against saint margarets!
haha , 7-3 . oh , the feeling of winning .
how nice is that !
one more match , i pray we would win that .
then maybe we could go to the second round . haha
alright , so continuing the awesomeness ,
school was slacky !
except for maths test , another fail for me . ):
then ss , well aircon . harhar
english , ms phay didnt come so free period !
was talking craps with amelah , guin and rach !
amelah with her infectious laughter !

so after that , went for match .
was singing with yi xin !
jay sean mannnn ! haha my singing honey/buddy ! (:
so match started .
my eye hurt at that time cos of the sweat !
but still played the match . haha
well , we won . yay !
went back school , my folks allowed me to go for coach's match .
super duper happy ! haha
so ate maggi in school , it was raining cats and dogs ! haha
i love the coldness !

so went to woodlands stadium , i got that bad romance fever back again ! hohoho :D
it was singapore vs australia .
was supporting both but a lil bit more of singapore !

THE NO. 5 AUSSIE PLAYER IS HOT ! ((((:

HAHA. and i know his name , benjamin !
and i saw his fb !
omg , stalker much ? but who cares ! haha .

was screaming during the whole thing , taking pics of the aussie players ! haha
i feel retarded now :O

so singapore won 8-4 .
it was a good match !
but like what he an said , focus more on the players than the game .
so true ! haha . (:

after that , walked home with the girls .
was singing the ltc leader's night friendship song .
oh the memories ! haha
it was very fun !

so went home with alisya and suhaila .
haha both of them were scared .
it was damn quiet .
so suhaila went home , sent alisya home then i went home .
washed up and all .
was super tired .
but still today was awesome ! (:

eh so wordy . haha

kay bye you wonderful awesome people .

2010-02-04T17:04:00.000-08:00

although it would be nice to have a chat with you again , i rather not .
i dont want anything to come back .
gah , just wish you all the best .

life has been amazingly hell-like .
so many craps weighing down all at the same time .
i just dont get , why it has all to end up this way .
its never gonna be the same .
oh well .

i need a punching bag .

i have a stupid injury near my eye . really near.
it hurts when i blink .
i hate this ):
hope it gets better soon .

yesterday , had match against holy innocents .
thats where i got my injury from .
it was a draw .

tomorrow , against st margarets .
wish us all the best !

looking for a david henrie in my life .
when i look at his pics , i just smile .
esp the eyes ! :D

nah , just someone i can really talk to about anything and everything . (:

i learnt something in maths today . im a happy girl !

ouch , my eye hurts .

kay , bye .

2010-01-25T21:51:00.000-08:00

gahh , i love david henrie !!!!! :DDDDD.

a pic of him soon , gonna sleep now !

bay-eeeeee !

i am so shocked , btw . :O

exactly , 4 more months to seventeen ! hehe .

kay , im really done . haha

2010-01-24T19:08:00.000-08:00

i love my babyboos !
josephine , rhia , nicole and rosalind ! ((((:
i cant wait for next sunday girlsssss .

P.S - rhia my baby , good acting there ! hahahahaha .

this weekend was great , very productive for once . i like very much .

i wonder what this new week has for me :O

bye guyzzzz .

2010-01-22T19:24:00.000-08:00

hello world .
what should i say about school?
hectic or fun or hell huh?
well actually all but less of the fun part . :O
2010 has been not so good honestly .
its january and there are already so much crap going .
i hate it , i really really very hate it alot .
it feels so suckish , they're changing . sad to say .
but i cant do anything .
accept everything that comes .
yx and i were discussing what would happen in 10 years in the bus stop just now ..
the whole idea was just awesome . i wish it would happen . i pray that it would .
today in school was , umm okay .
i actually studied maths and i studied the wrong chapter for ss .
so dumb . but i still managed to do the test . nice .
nothing much more . blah blah blah .
after school , floorball .
its my stress reliever now . just whack the ball as hard as i can .
it gives you the sense of ummm , enjoyment? i just enjoy the feeling when i whack the ball .
please , dont think wrongly .
okay so whack play sweat and such .
spent it with auriel , yi xin , atiqah and suhaila .
fun fun . yes as in fun .
after floorball stayed in the canteen , played this really awesome fun game .
i dont know the name . i keep losing . but still fun .
we were being retards and making so much noise .
played 'musical chairs' too ! haha
the nonsensical us . i love this bunch of people . (:
after that , nothing much . went home .
am actually suprised i blogged . haha . well yeah .

do you remember of all of the times we had ?
just when i thought i forgotten you , you always come back .
i hate this feeling . A - sad face .

-guys , were not the same .
i miss the old us . its so different .
there's no more joy , happiness . what happened?
i honestly dont know .
i cant spend my (maybe) last year with you guys this way .
i wont want to remember it at all .
i want the old us to be back , but i know it will never happen .
its just sad . really sad .
urgh . ):

im not being emo , just saying what i feel . (:

2010-01-17T21:29:00.000-08:00

i thank you , for making me smile even though my life is

so crappy now . appreciate it a lot , really ! :D

and no , its not A . if your wondering . (:

2010-01-16T18:00:00.000-08:00

can i just say that.. i hate you .

oh wait , i cant bear to .

damn it .

haha , just hope everything's gonna be okay soon . haha (:

im living my life to the fullest .

2010-01-10T22:22:00.000-08:00

i just wish every human being was a robot .

no feelings , no hurt no whatsoever .

but the worst part is we wont be able to feel any love .

so how?

life is so complicated , with all the bullshit now .

im so sorry readers for the 'emo' posts the past few days ,

everything is just well .. not turning out good .

like what they say , we appear to be very happy outside ,

but inside its hurting a lot .

will update soon . hopefully in a more happy post .

another week of school tomorrow .

hopefully it would be better than last week .

the ending was crap . :O

bye .

2010-01-09T14:57:00.000-08:00

im sorry . but this is all bullshit .

everything is so screwed up .

am going for a downfall .

hopefully there would be some luck .

all i need during this hard time , is you . but your gone .
its never gonna be the same .

so much for our happy ending .

bye .

2010-01-05T21:29:00.000-08:00

someone please just help me .

in dire need of nine one one .

i feel helpless , hopeless.

crap , shit whatever you wanna call it .

i dont wanna go to school . everything and (almost) everyone changed .

it doesnt feel the same .

sec 4 life seriously sucks . everything sucks .

i just need you .

but your not there .

so who else?

2010-01-01T23:45:00.000-08:00

hi .

so okay , i didnt officially bid farewell to year 2009 .

so here it goes , bye 2009 HELLO 2010 !!!

you sound much more hotter than 09 . ha ha .

okay , new year celebration was good . food was awesome , as usual .

i can guarantee myself that we were the only ones making noise among our area .

oh wow , how cool . its kinda tradition you see.

and oh , my siblings and i were jumping although i know i wont grow anymore but still trying

wont hurt right?

so yes that was my new year celebration . (:

anyways like what most people are doing , im gonna thank people on this post .

thank people for making my 2009 special , boring , sad , hard , dumb , funny any feeling you wanna put . but important is how the 2009 it turned out to be . (:

so yes , not in any particular order peeps (well maybe uh) !

well i thank : MY FAMILY .

for you guys always being as one , all the arguments and good times of course .

always being there for each other . supporting me , making me happy and angry and sad or whatever , i love you guysss ! lets spend many more years as one . (:

i also thank : my friends !!!! \m/

you know who you are uhhh , okay fine if you want special recognition then tag me ! hahaha

thank you to you people for making my 2009 special and lively .

for bearing with the crap it gave , and happiness it showered .

i love you all ! ( you know who you guys are ! )

i thank my class too for being the class that i love . (: . thank you for making studying more hard for me with all your distractions and all ! but its fine uh . :D

cant wait to see you guys , and study hard this year !

no more slacking uhhh .

well yeah , i thank people who were in LTC .

it was the best camp i attended to this year !

thanks for making it memorable . (:

you know who you guys are also , too many of you uh . haha

and to my group BEN 13+1 ! miss you guys .

all must study hard next year uhh . (:

lets see , who else to thank ...

ohh , i thank : my relatives !

thank you for making holiday back in june the most awesome time i ever had in a long long time ! (: . thank you for the awesome food , the awesome beach , the awesome mall trips , the awesome nonsensical talks about anything and the awesome hugging each other to sleep times . Ahhh , just everything awesome . would want to go back soon ! even though i know you guys wont see this , i miss you guys and i love you guysss ! haha . :D

(so many awesome's , i like ! )

andddd , thank you to you a !

thank you for caring and all the retarded phone moments . (:

i guess i alr thanked you right? i never regretted meeting you .

well just thank youuuuuuu .

take care always okay . haha

mkmb ! :DDDDD

and oh , i thank you k .

well for the good moments we had .

i just wish you all the best .

andddd lastly , i thank GOD .

for being there for me for the whole of 2009 .

and never leaving me ! (:

kay , thats everyone i had to thank . (:

im praying 2010 would be a good year despite my major exams !

i know im gonna treasure it . (:

just with my friends and family around , what more could i ask for . hahaha

and yay , two more days to school ! im excited and not ready at the same time . how? :O

okay such a wordy post .

again ,

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ! (:

bye peeps!

2010-01-01T13:54:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 2010/NEW YEAR !

new year , new everything . :D

first post of the year 2010 , awesome !!! (:

will update more tmr ! (:

food was awesome btw ! :D

2009-12-29T23:25:00.000-08:00

Quit playing games with my heart . (:

For the past two days , i've been listening to backstreet boys and nsync.

their old songs la . Its nice and meaningful .Love the beat too . :D

and it brings me back to the late 90s .

where i was still small innocent and my (very old) cousins would replay the song over

and over again . HAHA .

okay , i've been going out for the past few days . well today and yesterday .

and im TIRED . but had family bonding time which was great la .

watched avatar 3d yesterday , i cant believe i planted my ass for 2 hours 45 mins straight . wow

and oh before that went to eat at seoul garden and went idk where to play some basketball game on xbox and use the computer at the same time . So not where my family to be at .

But again , it was awesome time spent there . :D

today , went to sentosa to get myself a tan .

haha , it was fine uh .

well i didnt get the tan that i want , but its fine .

im a little darker now . hohohoho . (:

i wanna get me my haircut tmr .

BOB ftw ! lol .

i wanna get that darn phone tomorrow tooooooo !

im praying ... hahaha .

and eh twin !!!

i still dont get how you get your sexy sleep .

lol , inside joke if you dont know .

miss you laaaaaa . ):

cant wait to see youuuuuu . (:

to end of this post ,

Quit playin' games with my heart (with my heart)
Before you tear us apart (my heart)
Quit playin' games with my heart
I should've known from the start
You know you've gotta stop (from my heart)
You're tearin' us apart (my heart, my heart)
Quit playin' games with my heart .

bye peeps!

2009-12-28T00:32:00.000-08:00

happy 12th birthday RAY JIM PARDO COGTAS !

see the spotlight's on you above . :D

anyways , even though your such a pain in the ass , your still my younger brudda .

thanks for the retarded times and the favours . (:

study hard and stop playing habbo , your 12 alr man !

even though i know you wont be reading this ,

i hope you study hard for next year's PSLE .

love you laaaa brudda . hohohoho .

oh yeah , happy birthday to atika too !

haha , saggy boobs ! :D

lastly ,

sylvia should have won instead of that sezairi guy ! geez .

haha , toodles . (:

2009-12-26T23:59:00.000-08:00

'Although we don't see each other physically, dreams exist and allows us to be closer together'. :D

i love today . thank you for everything .

love you laaaaaa ! (:

oh yeah , happy boxing day everyone !

5 more days to 2010 !

christmas food was the BOMB ! Haha ,

2009-12-26T00:54:00.000-08:00

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leaving my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
And how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me

I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

2009-12-25T15:30:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE ! :D

and happy birthday to jesus christ ! i love you bro ! hehehe . :D

enjoy your day everyone and mind what you eat ! hahahaha .

2009-12-24T00:52:00.000-08:00

kay, where do i begin this post . hahaha.

ohh so today , in the morning

umm i went to school at six fourty five in the am for

sec 1 registration thingy . it was okay .

tiring la , and yay i wasnt dora for the day . lol

sooo did duty and such , okay ah.

best part was ..... helping to sell of the books .

it was fun , esp cos we were literally screaming at each other and such .

then more fun came , i went to meet my girls RACHEL MOORTHY AND AURIEL LIM . :D

i havent seen them in a long long time la . oh yeah , I LOVE YOUR FRINGE TWIN ! :D

its so cute. -really la , aiyo . (: .

SORRY I WAS LATE AHHH ! (:

kayy , i met them at kfc . ate , talked crap , ate and talked crap again = FUN!

hmm so after that was suppose to watch new moon , but cos of me we didnt . ):

I AM TERRIBLY SUPERBLY SORRY GIRLS ! hehehe.

so we went to walk around lot 1 which is a boring place to be walking around

but it was alright . haha. so yeah . that was what we did .

i wanna hang out with you girls soon , on the 26th ! :D . hopefully uh .

went home , washed up and changed then went for simbang gabi .

it was the last day and homily was kinda awesome ! hahaha.

but i wasnt feeling too well so yeah .

went home straight after as everyone was tired . mostly me la .

sooo , that was my day . haha

i was reading xiaxue's lovestory . so sweet uh .

so drama in a way . oh well .

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE EVERYONE !

cant wait for tomorrow (later) . woohoooo ! (:

oh yeah , happy birthday syafiqah ! :D

i still love ya loads ! HAHA .

2009-12-21T13:16:00.000-08:00

i just cannot help but post the above ^ .

saw it not long ago . (:

im such a noob at blogging cos i dont know how to put

two picsss in one post . hehehe.

woohoo , bad romancee !

p.s. - sorry for the fact that my photo blocking some of my links .

told ya im a noob in blogging . hahahaha.

kay , bye .

2009-12-21T01:10:00.000-08:00

your gonna be mine soon babyyyy ! hahaha.

although i said i wanted the nokia phone , papa got me the phone above .

the starhub guy said the phone isnt that bad so i hope he did not lie . :O

mann , finally a new phone . :D

anyways , my papa was being very generous just now .

he bought pizza after simbang gabi :DDDDDD.

thank you very much .

we didnt mind anymore the fact that he made us walk from the

church in clementi to the mrt station there .

omg , it was effing seriously farrr .

but the wind was niceeee . :D

so yeah , now i cant sleep as im still full .

oh wow , 4 more days till christmas !!!!!!

thats like soooo fastttt !

i just feel 2009 went by so fast .

and sad to say , i kinda wasted it la .

i know i shouldnt be saying it , but its true .

there are a number of reasons for this which

i wont state here . hahahahohohoho .

im looking forward to the food during christmas and the new year . harhar

i hope i wont waste 2010 . (:

i'll get the help of bro . :D

i have no idea when i'll get my books , damn it . ):

yay , okay im done blogging .

i miss youuuuuu and your voice! ):

2009-12-20T02:01:00.000-08:00

seems like its an interesting movie .

i always wanted to know more about sherlock holmes .

would wanna watch it . hehehe .

okayyy , i cant sleep .

cos i ate ice cream at midnight .

cool right? not .

now i got stomach ache . aiya .

should have followed what my bro said .

oh well . hahaha . im a very tired one today .

update more later laaaa . hahaha.

i love being an 'I' person ~ :D

sometimes when you look into the person's eyes , then you know how much you love that person.

2009-12-16T23:43:00.000-08:00

thats the killers btw . :D

i listened to them the whole day today . he he

(not forgetting lady g too of course)

they helped ease my cramps .

so thank you to them . (:

i noticed brandon flowers too .

thats the guy second from the left . haha .

he has sex appeal . ooohhhh . i likeee .

shut up if you think he doesnt have .

although he's (kinda) old and married , he still has it . :D

anyways , today was the second day of simbang gabi .

it was fun . 7 more days to gooooo . :D

adam ,

i hope you had fun today . dont go crazy and such .

need to talk to ya soon ! many stuff to tell . hehehe

thanks for everything btw and sorry for the bad times

no need to say much . hehehe

happy birthday again .

love.love.love.love.love.love.

i hate the fact my parents keep bugging me to buy my school stuff.

so kanchiong ah them .

somebody told me you had a boyfriend who looked like a girlfriend .

bye .

2009-12-16T00:25:00.000-08:00

i am having stupid cramps right now .

my period came earlier than usual . GREAT .

just great .

anyways . enjoyed simbang gabi just noww . hehe . :D

-winks winks .

just that my cramps , urgh .

oooohh ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADAM ! :DDDDDDDDD.

love.love.love.love.love.love.love.

i typed it with your 'fiery red' . hahahaha .

enjoy your day . (:

talk to ya soon .

2009-12-14T22:25:00.000-08:00

The prayer to Our Lady Gaga:

Hail Gaga, Full of Disco,
Our love is with thee.
Blessed art thou among gays,
And blessed is the fruit of thy Haus,
Gaga.

Holy Gaga, Lady of Disco Stick,
Play for us monsters
Now and at the end of this Lovegame.
Just dance.

cool or what? hahaha . :O

im a monster . L-O-L .

i am utterly disappointed today .

nevermind , i shall wait for the 28th then . :D

2009-12-13T23:58:00.000-08:00

LOOK AT YOURSELF BEFORE YOU JUDGE OTHERS please .

tyvm .

i cant wait for tomorrow ! :D

2009-12-13T14:11:00.000-08:00

oh shit .

well timecheck- 2AM .

there's this japanese/korean boyband named 2PM right?

ah cut the crap .

i cant sleep and im here blogging knowing im gonna toss and turn in bed later . sigh

anyways , i think i have imsomnia :O .

i've been always sleeping late lately .

I HATE THISSSSS !

oh yeah , today (or yesterday for that matter) i watched 2012 and twilight .

yes , twilight .

i know im damn slowwwww . but heck .

i watched 1 hour of it only as it was slow . as in SLOW .

and it keeps pausing . sheesh

2012 was fine . haha .

i wanted to watch blind side too but the quality sucks . so nvm .

yess thats about what i did the whole day yesterday . hehe . :D

yaaa , i know my life is so boring .

i dont give a damn anyways .

im living my life to the fullest still .

okay , im gonna try to sleep now .

12 more days to christmas peeps ! woohooo .

jump , scream and shout !!! haha

still waiting for monday and hoping . :D

bye .

2009-12-11T19:08:00.000-08:00

DORA SAYS HI . HAHA .

ehh hk , buy for me dora hor . hehe
lol , miss you la deyyyy .
come back fast k . :D
i know you like blues clues . ha ha

bye .

2009-12-11T00:25:00.000-08:00

well maybe im not so missing in action .

rachel told me i was . oh well . ):

anyways , i hate the fact that my throat is itchy .

thats why its so hard to sleep .

and the fact that my chest feels tight and i cant breathe sometimes.

sheesh , must be my lung acting up .

i had fun today with my mom , sis and younger bro .

i esp loved the fact that we bought santa hats for 2 bucks each from daiso.

and when we went home , we started taking webcam picssszxzxz.

sooo fun mannn !

cant wait for christmas .

weird part , i cant wait for school to start and at the same time , im uber duper wooper

not looking forward to it . the dreaded n's alr .

i just cant wait for simbang gabi .

translated - night church? haha .

and after that eat , eat and eat ! woohooo . hehehe . be my fat self again .

weird thing i've noticed . just for me

some of us , cant wait to grow up and be independent .

but some of us want to be small kids again not worrying about anything .

i rather just go with the flow , and treasure every moment rather than having to

regret about anything . be contented .

if we lose something or someone , there will definitely a better one coming .

so dont sulk over it . (:

yeap , thats what i noticed .

anywaysss , i miss talking to johnny . where on singapore is that guyyy?

i miss my friendssss tooooo . ):

gah , stupid .

lady gaga rocks .

listen to speechless or better still bad romance uhhhh .

i cant wait for monday . hoping and praying . :D

dear a ,

i finally feel a little better about everything. not all good but yeah .

i wish you all the best really . good luck in everything .

hopefully we see each other soon aye? (:

you know i have something special for you still...

good news!

im going to bake cupcakes with iffah and ameera soon . (:

hope mama allows , hoping . !

woohoo , cant wait .

gotta bring my eggs .

2009-12-10T23:38:00.000-08:00

MISSING IN ACTION .

bye .

2009-12-07T22:03:00.000-08:00

i want this for Christmas , pretty please?
i like the yellow keypad . (:

2009-12-07T00:08:00.000-08:00

I did three things today; miss you, miss you, and miss you .

although i shouldn't be .

2009-12-06T21:17:00.000-08:00

“ This is for the broken-hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don’t want to laugh, because you know it’s not going to help, but you don’t want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it’s falling apart too. You don’t think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That’s the confusing part, you don’t know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you’re getting happy again, but you know inside that you’re just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you’re back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can’t help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn’t happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don’t know the true pain you feel and carry each and every day now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you’ve had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you’re to the point where you don’t care who see it. Because you’ve spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it’s not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, “It will be okay…” But you know it won’t. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You’re still hurt, but you’ve learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don’t hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this..

-poeticheartache.tumblr

oh wow . haha

2009-12-04T17:21:00.000-08:00

-credits to mr gek la . haha (:

love the pic above . ^
just ignore our dirty shirts and umirah sticking out her tongue .
i miss the mud game , suprisingly. HA HA .
i miss the girls above too . ):
oh well , what to do . heehee

watching MTV's 16 and pregnant now . the show's quite interesting and helpful in a way .
It says : no SEX before marriage . well , obviously la .

just now had training , it was okay okay uhhh . my stamina sucks . lol
and oh , happy birthday ms soon . (:
on my way back , i heard this small kid say ' pantat lahhhh youuuuu ! '
it was really cute . hahaha .
while buying lunch , saw salleh too . omg , he is HUGEEEE!
stalker la that guy . lol

well gonna continue watching the show .

bye .

2009-12-03T15:34:00.000-08:00

everyone

www.brilliantcreatures.tumblr.com
is the hottest thing in town now ..

NOT. HA HA .

go check if you want . (:

2009-12-02T21:41:00.000-08:00

oh my gay . i just created a tumblr account . HA HA .

cant believe i just woke up from my sleep , again .

pig oh pig .

sheesh .

2009-12-02T19:21:00.000-08:00

i love ameera and shuhadah and iffah plus her rajoo love many many .
thankssss for reminiscing primary school life with me girlssssszzz.
all the stupid and weird and innocent? stuff we use to do . HAHA.
wow . and to ameera and shuhadah thanks for going to youtube watching skitzo vids
with me again and again . Made me realise how much i miss you guyssss ahh . ):
Hope to see you girls soon . (:

and johnny , if your reading this .. how the heck did you know my blog and get my no ?
haha , anyways nice chatting with you the other day . (: . oh yeah , tag me the answer okay?! -.-

oh man , training was a sure killer . period . i hate sit ups cos they cause my butt and lower back to hurt , a lot .

im tired , bye .

2009-11-30T20:18:00.000-08:00

hello suckers!
long time no post .

i feel so sad today , i fell down on my bum during training today . ):
but not as much as how hk fell . hehe . :D
second reason was after training today went to meet my mama and aunt at jp .
they told me maybe im going back with my aunt to the phils. for a vacation .
YOU KNOW HOW HAPPY AND EXCITED I WAS THEN???!!!
turned out , it was fakeeeeee! boohoo.
i was disappointed but relieved and happy in a way. hehehe . :D

alright , so went to walk around jp for a while and suchhh.
to replace my sadness , mama bought me a watch !!!! Its red , not blue but its fine. Haha.
I likeee it , thanks to mama and some to my aunt too for telling me the cat joke.
Omg . Love you guysss . Wow .

Okay then went home . The journey was longggggg .
Mannn , knee is hurting noww . ):

Exciting newsssss ,
Gonna watch new moon with my primary school clique soonnnnnn!
Although not a fan of the movie , still its the company that counts . :D

Bye my suckerssss! :D

Good luck in everything eh? (:

one more thing ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIANCA!!

i miss you many many!
bring me german sausages when you come back okay! :D

2009-11-28T01:33:00.000-08:00

Alrightsss . Firstly ,

Happy happy birthday Nabilah !

'C' gang ehhh? (:

Alright , time check - 12:52AM .

Cant sleep uh , so decided to do something .

Haha , gonna write down 50 things i wanna have/do before i die . (:

50 THINGS I WANNA DO/HAVE OR WISH BEFORE I DIE :

1.Say bye to everyone.

2.Tell the people that i love that i love them.

3.Finish my studiesss

4.Get married .

5.Have the best husband and a faithful one tooo!

6.Have my 4 children. Woohooo!

7.It must be 2 girls and 2 boyssss.

8.Have a big big houseee.

9.Have many many carsss . Haha.

10.Have a decent job and a decent pay too .

11.Maybe a singing career ? HAHAHA.

12.To go Hollywood , Spain , Greece , Greenland , Texas , Iceland and many many more . Heehee.

13.For my friendss to be happy .

14.For my parents to be always happily in love still.

15.For my siblings to have their own families and jobs.

16.Freedom ahhhh!

17.To learn french , dutch , german and spanish .

18.To have a duet with lady gaga! -bad romance!

19.To steal beyonce's legs . :D

20.To meet beyonce.

21.To be in a lady gaga , beyonce and boys like girls concert!

22.For my coffin to be gold like mj's.

23.To have my place at the walk of fame .

24.To meet the creators of Dora The Explorer.

25.Ask them nicely why they gave Dora a bob hairdo.

26. Have a karaoke marathon with my cousinsssssssss.

27.To be able to touch real snowwwww.

28.To be able to watch a live american football match.

29.To be the biggest loser ! Hahaha.

30.To be a contestant of the amazing race .

31.Nobody to cry at my funeral. Hahaha,

32.Blue and blue , blue?

33.To date spongebob !

34. To date Ben from ben 10! :D

35. For a reunion with primary school matessss. All of them.

36. Lifetime supply of uncle robert's teh ping . :D

37. To have a nice tannn!

38. To travel the world with friendsss only . No parents . Hehe.

39.Have a camera for myself.

40.To meet Enchong Dee!

41. Ask Stephanie Meyer why her books are so addicting to people.

42. Be in the same school as Harry Potter and gang . Cool stuff.

43. To write my own biography .

44. For it to be a best-seller.

45. For the clique to be there for each other alwayssssss. (:

46. For my future children to happy alwaysss and be smart in love .

47. To have my own tv show on mtv. muahahahaha.

48.For the right filipino guy ! haha . (:

49. Always be happyyyy ahh .

50. The night before i die , gonna have a huge party with friends and family . Gonna dance sing and be retards all night long

51. To die peacefully , not some accident pleaseee? :D

Hmm , yeap 50 +1 thingsss.

I know some are crappy while some are true while some are just fantasies. hehehe. (: .

Might be adding more if i got more ideas.

And oh , its not in particular order .

Listen to You Sexy Thing by Hot Chocolate .

Reminds me of LTC Leader's Night .

The fashion walk. Hahaha .

Memoriesssss. (:

K , thats all .

Goodnight or good morning people.

2009-11-27T15:04:00.000-08:00

Hello .

Many shits have been happening lately .
But there would still be stuff/people to be able to make me happy.

Haha , the 'c' topic is still hot for those who know about it . omg .
I love my friendsssssssss.
I cant wait to hang out with ameera , iffah , shuhadah and sulaiha.
Update me okayyy .
Finally after 3 years . :D
Was chatting with ameera on msn last night .
Brings back many memories . Catching up soon. (:
And i still remember your full name , while you dont remember mine. ):
Haha .

Now my juniors even call me dora . -.-
Thanks to hk , yx and company uhh. Thanks a lot . Lol.
Now im known as dora . HAHA.
Should i keep my bob? lol.

Christmas is in 28 days? Woohoooo! Haha.
Hk , my presents from hk hor . Thanks uhh .

Bye.

everything is complicated now .
stuck in the past .

2009-11-26T20:29:00.001-08:00

Letting go of someone dear to you is hard but holding on to someone
who doesn’t even feel the same is much harder.
It hurts when you have someone in your heart
but you cant have them in your arms.

sorry .

2009-11-26T12:51:00.000-08:00

Being persistent surely pays off .

Je veox ton amour .

Happy birthday Johnyyy! (:
I still remembered . Wow.

2009-11-25T20:08:00.000-08:00

okay im back again .

so i just came back from ltc camp .
it was really a good good experience like said just now .
my group finally bonded ahhhh . really happy to see that . (:

BEN 13+1 ! .

honestly , never laughed , smiled , cheered , jeered this much in a long long time.
alright , i guess people would want a proper update? haha .

First day -
Woke up at 5 . i still had to pack some stuffs . really dumb of me lah .
changed all those stuffs. took a cab to school.
mama was scared i'll get raped . like that would happen . LOL.
was laughing instead of getting irritated. Haha.
Okay , was late . Haha . Never get scolded , lucky.
Went to hall , surrendered and stuffs.
Met with my group , had to make a banner .
Lol , so the theme had to be superhero so we chose ben 10 . cute i know .
but since we had 13 members plus 1 teacher we made it ben 14 . HAHA.
presented our banner to the rest in avt . blahblah.
After that got some training .. skip this part .
Then , lunch. Which was not so good uhh.
Here's the fun part of the day .
Games! Haha . okay , so we had games like
throwing water bombs and crawling in mud .
Fun . The mud was seriously sticky and disgusting and i was wearing my new shirt . Damn .
Okay , so after that wash up and dinner . Same as lunch .
Training and such then nightwalk . Haha , then the vibrator thingy came up right yi xin and hiu kee? Hahahaha. It wasnt so scary but the whole row in the dnt room was freakishly scary . omg .
cant see anything .
Debrief , wash up and stuffs . then off to sleep .
aiya , our plan of telling ghost story didnt happen . Nevermind then .

Second day-
Woke up at 6 . Went to wash up and took my own sweet time . Since no one was waiting . Wait , YI XIN fell down in class 1/7. She slipped on a sleeping mat. Hahaha. So assembled and stuffs . Then practice for leader's night dance . FUN. Was practically with yi xin and hiu kee. Laugh like mad again girls . YES!!!! ( in a very singlish kind of tone) .
Breakfast . Okay uh . Training after that again .
Then we had briefing for amazing race . Took t-shirts , money and stuffs .
Was stressed at this point. -.-
So , first stop was Nie .
Being us , we took 171 from school, went to newton to 171 back again and dropped at nus . We had to find yellow furry bouncing balls? So wrong place , tired . Took a long bus ride to boon lay . It was really long . Chatted with atika and mitra in the bus , was sleeping after that . And oh , i guess this was the time i started to sing the chorus of bad romance . muahahaha.
Went to nie , got next clue walked to ntu . The place really big mannnn .
While walking was singing , group members started getting irritated . Haha.
got next clue ,decided to go back to school since we were lazy .
went to buy food and stuffs . waited for like how many dora years for the bus.
on the way back , atika , mitra and me were like gossiping. Haha.
Atika , i know your dirty little secret and you know mine too? Haha.
Went back to school , was late .
And omg , we had only like 15 mins to change into our formal attire? tsk tsk .
So got dressed for the occasion , i should say everyone looked really formal esp yi xin! Haha.
YI XIN was best dressed female !! wohoooo! congrats . (:
The part came , we danced macarena ! Partner was hiukee! Haha. Really fun .
Ohhh then danced the high school musical song , so sweet . not .
i forgot the guy i was partnered at first then changed partner to hiukee and yi xin . Yx and i were literally swaying around the hall. effing funny . again laughed like crazy girlsszzz/. Oh ya , hiu kee and me were swaying around too . LOL. Next was friendship song? , had a huge circle . Had to dance with guys . Haha . Forgot danced with how many .Nothing much after , cleaned up went to bunk and such . washed up went for debrief .
Slept right after . Oh yeah , i sang bad romance before sleeping . wohoooo!

Happy birthday Syirah ! Hope you enjoyed yourself . (:

Third day -
Woke up at 6.30 , meeting time 7 . Haha. Nothing much today . Early morning did 1000 successful claps . it was tiring and i was aching but its the first time i shouted my lungs out so early in the morning . That was the good part . Breakfast and suchhh . Cleared bunks . Cleared the canteen , thank god not the toilets . Haha!
Alright , had last training .
Went to the hall.Debrief , closing of camp . Then had reflection .
Were given papers to write a letter of appreciation to thank ppl , of course i wrote to the people who made camp fun lahhhh . Haha. 'Saggy boobs' atika? Love you too girl . (: . Hiukee , i love singing bad romance okay !! Then there was this 15 min video of all the pics during the camp . I was smiling to myself . Really niceeee. Haha . Awwwww . Returning of stuffs , group photos and such . Said bye to groupmates and stuff . Took pics with friendsss .
That was camp . felt contented , happy and stuff . And i hate to say , i miss it alr .
Thought it would be boring but it wasnt at all. Haha .

After the camp , went bpp with YIXIN , hiukee , nabilah , sockwei and charmaine .
It was laughing marathon mannnnnn! YIXIN has found her 'soulmate' .
Or her soulmate found her? Hahahaha. YIXIN i pity you girl. We were talking bout stuffs and people the whole time . Really entertaining and fun . Hope to hang out with you girls soon again!
Okay , so finished talking . Went home and such . I hate unpacking . Although im happy im home , i misss camp , hearing atika snore . Haha , no lah joking ! (:

Okay , im tired but i feel stoked . I hope i can post the ltc photos here? Mr gek !! Haha.

Omg , this post is really what you call 'long' . HAHA.

Okay really , bye for now .

2009-11-25T18:10:00.000-08:00

im backkkkk!

ohh man , gotta say im really tired but the last three days have been awesomeee lah dey .
really enjoyed it to the maxxxx!

BEN 13+1 ! you guys rock my bumm off lah . Esp atika and mitra . bonded with you guyssss many many .

i know i've been singing this part many times in camp till it irritated people but gonna sing it to my dear blog . muahahahaha!

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-Roma-ma-ah!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-Roma-ma-ah!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

bad romance -lady gaga

im still bummed on why i cant spell initiative? haha idiot me .
im gonna do a full update later .

bye.

2009-11-22T18:56:00.000-08:00

I am going off for ltc camp in 12 hours timeeee. (:
I still have to pack my stuff and finish the project .
I hope the camp would be fun !

I am gonna miss my bed , my fan , my pillows , my bolster. ):

But im gonna miss my family , twin , friendsssss and you! . ))):

Well , take care everyone .

till wednesday . (:

2009-11-21T19:23:00.000-08:00

DARINE !!!!
Hahahahaha. Sorry darius . :D

-inside joke uhhh.

tired.sleepy.full.excited.worried a little.

k , byeeee .\m/

2009-11-20T00:00:00.000-08:00

Ohhhh , time check 12 mn .

Date: November 20 2009

Special occasion: My twin's birthdayyyyyyyyy!

My twin a.k.a Auriel is finally FIFTEENNNNNN! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUU!

You were born in the zoo .

i wrote it in green especially for you. (:

Ehhh , it rhymes ! Just noticed . HAHA.

Anyways , enough with the crap.

Just wanna say , thank you for being a good friend . Having a good listening ear.

And never failing to be there for me always . Haha . And especially for putting up

with my craps everytime. (: .

Although we had some rough patches in the past , you are one of my treasured friends now

and always will be! I hope we stay twins together till our last breath eh? (:

Haha . I hope you wont be so skinny so i wont be so fat anymore.

Love you lah my twin . (:

Happy birthday again !

Your fat twin .

-Maybe updating tmr again . (:

hello again .

time now 11:27 am

today is still my twin's birthday . Haha.

k , so today is gonna be a busy day for meeee .
urgh the camp and the project . -.-
i'll have to find my sleeping bag today and wash it up .
i dont know where in the house it is .
i have to start packing .
and finish anything and everything about the project.

i sincerely hope i'll get my motivation . HAHA.

okay ,
so yesterday we went to celebrate auriel's birthday at vivo.
lol , such good actors we are . haha
well , would like to say sorry to auriel as it was effed up at first . (:
k , moving on girija and joash got her a cake went to amphitheathre (sp?)
to eat and suchhhh.
haha , dont want so detailed .
hmmm okay , went to eat at bk.
then went to some place to play truth or dare . It was okay . haha
after that had to go home alr . saddd . ):
in the bus back , i saw fir !!!
or rather my eyes were fooling me as i was to sleepy .
aiya , i dont know . HAHA.

hmm after that i went home . haha yeap thats my day yesterday .

hoping that ltc wont be so boring and wont take the crap out of me . :D

k bye .
late breakfast for me . muahahahaha.

2009-11-18T21:30:00.000-08:00

TELL ME , WHATS YOUR PROBLEM?!

you and you .

Freemer , i want my cameraaaaaaaaaaaa!

ciao \m/ .

2009-11-17T19:51:00.000-08:00

i hate when i know the answer but i cant seem to voice it out .
i know what i feel.
its not the other way round .

thanks for your company and the singing too although it was for a few mins. HAHA.
i really wish you were just beside me .
oh yeah , im listening to the song now? :D
i miss youuuuuuuuuuu many many la ! -a sadder sad face . ): .

another thing i hate is i've been sneezing like 10 times after i woke up !!!
i dont like the feeling of thissss.

and omg , a high school musical song?
you have got to be kidding me .
plus macarena and some other song .
DIE .
whyyyy?

and oh , i just sneezed . make it 11. -.-

bye
you beautiful people .

'whisper three words and i'll come runnin.
and girl you'll know i'll be there' . (: